“He brought the tribe of Benjamin near by its clans, and the clan of the Matrites was taken by lot; and Saul the son of Kish was taken by lot. But when they sought him, he could not be found.” (ESV – Read the chapter)
This was Saul’s big moment. He’d been anointed by Samuel to be the first king of Israel. He’d now been chosen by lot—the process by which the people determined the will of the Lord. And when his big moment came…he was nowhere to be seen.
God had to whisper to Samuel about where he was hiding (which is a good reminder that we can’t hide from Him anywhere). When they finally find him he reluctantly comes out and is recognized by the people as their new king. Everyone is happy.
But, not everything is as right as it seems. This is the first hint at Saul’s real character. He is not the healthy combination of bold, yet humble, that’s needed for such a position as he is now facing. What seems like it might be humility at first glance looks a whole lot more like insecurity upon a closer inspection. This insecurity would gradually grow and develop and bear the bitter fruits of jealousy and mistrust among others.
When God has called us to something, it is not humble to try and refuse or hide from the honor or position. It is unfaithfulness. It is insecurity. Insecurity is not a value of the kingdom of God. We are to have confidence in our God and the gifts He has given us. He made them to be used for His glory and our joy—use He will help us accomplish.
Let us throw off the lies of sin that we are not enough, and stand tall and firm in the identity our God has given us.