“So Amnon hated Tamar with such intensity that the hatred he hated her with was greater than the love he had loved her with. “Get out of here!” he said.” (CSB – Read the chapter)
Have you ever wanted something really badly, got it, and then discovered it was not nearly what you thought it would be? I know I’ve made a few purchases that would qualify for this category. How about this, have you tried to satisfy yourself with something other than God before? How’d that go for you? It certainly didn’t turn out the way Amnon thought it would.
Amnon had obsessed over his sister, Tamar, for months. He had convinced himself that he was in love with her, but he was really just in lust. He didn’t really care for her at all. Perhaps he did at some point early on in his attraction, but it gradually became about nothing more than himself and satisfying the evil desire he had allowed to grow in his heart.
Well, what was it that James said about giving place to an evil desire?
“But each person is tempted when he is drawn away and enticed by his own evil desire. Then after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin, and when sin is fully grown, it gives birth to death.”
– James 1:14-15
Amnon experienced this truth from start to finish. He sought to see this evil desire satisfied, sinned grievously against his sister, and was ultimately murdered by his brother for it. Meanwhile, he killed his sister’s dignity and chances at a happy life, as well as his brother’s relationship with their father. Death was unleashed in all kinds of places because of his sin.
Just as bad: He discovered that this thing he thought would satisfy him didn’t. Not only did it not satisfy him, it became the object of his hatred. He was repulsed by it.
Listen: When we seek to satisfy ourselves in something other than God, we’re going to eventually find this thing does not get the job done. We were designed to be satisfied only by Him. Anything we chase as the solution to what ails us other than God is going to fall short. And when it does, sometimes the frustration and renewed sense of meaninglessness can translate into a disgust that’s more intense than the desire had been in the first place.
So here’s our lesson: Find your satisfaction in the Lord. You won’t find it anywhere else. You won’t find it anywhere else and if you try, you’ll just wind up emptier than you were when you started. Only Jesus can fill the ache you feel inside. Let Him do it.